hate this

feeling very very mixed up tonight :(

hungry, but dont want food, folk gig was nice, a few people i knew came, but i just feel totaly blah tonight.

doesnt help that i feel a bit shit with my period.

just felt very out of it socially. i feel like a social retard.

nothing new, just felt very much alone tonight. i never know who to talk to or what to say. i always worry that im saying the wrong thing, or that people are only talking to me because they have to, which makes me even less likely to talk to them.

iv had enough of feeling so alone, but it doesnt matter how many people i try and talk to, it never goes.

in a way doing this tour just makes feeling alone even more real. it just rubs it in. its easier when i can choose to be alone. that way it doesnt feel like its not a choice.