thats all i can think tonight...]
there has got to be more to life than this!!!
my head has been going mental at me all day... to eat, not to eat, to excercise, to weight myself, to stop comfort eating (but stuff my face to make myself feel even worse) etc etc etc....
there has to be something better than these thoughts for the rest of my life.
i dont know why i care so much, its only weight, its not a big deal, no one else will see the kg that sprang up overnight, its not like you walk around with it tattooed on your head for everyone to see. its just me who knows it, and really it shouldnt matter this much!
its to easy to get sucked into this minuscule world, when there is so much more on the outside. if only i were brave enough to lock the door on this, and live in the real world.
iv felt so panicky and sad becasue of food and weight today, but why do i bother? i know il feel like this when i think about it, you would think id learn that not thinking about it would be sensible!!!
its definatly an evening when im going 'LA LA LA I CANT HEAR YOU>...'
so, fuck of ed, get your own life, and stop taking up mine >.>
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