hello,

today has been mixed.
im finding it hard to be motivated to do anything at the moment. probably because im secretly stressing over everything.

i had an email yesterday from the head of accademic studies saying that i am aloud to retake year 2, so with a doctors note, everything should be covered by the student loans company *phew* so its just a case of waiting for my letter to come through and then i can send it off to the SLC. It does mean that i loose all my marks that i already had, but then they werent great marks as i really wasnt with it! (i think i got some equivelent of 2 2's and 2 1's but without doing anything).

still not heard from the estate agent. dont feel like i can relax until i know i have somewhere to move to. i really hope we can move there, and i really hope they let us know on monday, because i just want everything sorted!

i havent really planned anything for my birthday. its on thursday, but i just feel so overwhelmed with everything that i dont think can deal with planning anything. maybe once iv moved i will have a late one.

just feeling very unmotivated with everything. there is plenty i need to do, but there seems so much that i just stay in bed as long as i can, and spend the rest not doing much at all. im lazy and pretty useless, but i just feel tired of having to make the effort.

my weight keeps going up (still). today it was the highest its been- 53.5kg. i could cry.