update

Hello,

well, things are a bit all over the place, and have been for a few weeks (hence going quiet).

1. i need to move, and due to flat mate to be, and there being no flats, it has taken ages to find somewhere. as of today i think we may have something, but have to wait for the estate agent to check with the owners if they are happy to let us rent, so cant be sure yet.

2. the student loans company font want to pay maintanance loan if i do 2nd year part time (i already compleated half my creddits), but my uni dont want me to resit it, as i passed some already. this leaves me in a situation where i wont be able to afford to go back anyway.

3. i have no money.

4. my flat mate is being more n more of a twat.

5. im no sleeping well unless i knock myself out.

6. i hate my weight, i hate eating this much and im tired of fighting it.

7. i have all of 3 sessions left with francessca, and then thats it. no more help for me..

8. i have very scary performances coming up in october and i dont feel good enough.

9. im fatttttt and i cant get it out of my head.

and 10. im fat.

going to go put my head down, things i took to knock me out are finally kicking in x