'so how do you deal with your emotions if you dont show your angry too paddy?'

i didnt have an answer earier, but i do now.
i came in tonight and he is smoking in the living room - where my washing is drying. his answer to it is 'well it doesnt matter, i will light some inscence tomorrow'

i could cry.
i want to cut.

i am angry beyonde beleif. i knew he had been smoking in the flat, but to not even put the fucking thing out when i came in and to be such a fucking arsehole.

he is having a laugh with kath in the living room.

i need to be out of here now.