grrrrr

why hello there lovely people,
how are you all?!!!

im in college again... practicing again... with pins n needles over my shoulder blade... again! im seriously considering investing in out of those home medics shiatsu massagers... anyone had one?
i figure in the long run it would acctually be better then trying to afford real massages :-?

practice is going ok, getting frustrated at a peace of Bach! so far i have it up 3 metronome marks from yesterday, but there is one little bit that is doing my head in! i always slow up there accidently, and dont bend my thumb properly, which supposedly means i have less contol, but i feel more out of control with my thumb bent!

hmmm, recorder speak, sorry!

hopefully heading to a friends later, he said he would massage my shoulder for me wooooop!!! :clap:

finding food hhhhaaaaarrrrd...
im still eating, its just my weight is STILL going up a lot, and i dont know what to do about it, its higher then its been since i was 12, and im really worried its going to keep going. my bmi is 22 now, which i can kinda deal with, aslong as it stays there. i just dont want it to keep going up and up :(

i feel a bit lost with what to do about it because i know i shouldnt cut down on food, but at the same time i think maybe im eating to much, but cant work out weather i think it, or ed thinks it.

im trying very hard to just ignore it, just not finding it easy :-?

anyway, should go practice more before college shuts, just needed a little rant! x