officially single again =-s

well, i finally broke it off with lewis.
i am feeling a little sad, but also a little releived.
it wasnt working, it was stressing me out, and i couldnt be myself around him. i couldnt do what i wanted because he always wanted too get his own way, and i couldnt talk too him about how i have been feeling, and as paddy pointed out, it should be my boyfriend that i can talk too.

iv not really eaten enough i dont thing - some cerial, a 94kcal pack of crisps, some salad and a couple of small slices of a small pizza. i wasnt going too eat the pizza, but i guess its not as bad as my head is making out.

right now my head is in a 'too binge or not too binge' mode. its not that i want a binge, its that i know i should eat more, but i also know i would throw it up.

i have already been stupid and self harmed today, just after i split up with him, but i guess thats not a surprise really.