its COOOLLLLLDDDD!!!!

im under my covers in a thermal with a hot water bottle and still cold, and im eating properly n all!!!

things have been mixed,

still eating but not finding it easy, and getting a bit pissed off with the cmht not getting in touch. iv been told i should ring them up, but why is it my job?! i mean im the one meant to be needing the support, so why am i having to bloody get in touch with them to ask for it. it happened after daycare, i never got followed up, and that was that. i seem to be very easy for them to forget.
i want to throw a strop and tell them all to f off and not bother getting in touch with them, but everyone keeps going on about how its not them that that will effect etc etc bla bla bla... i know but i dont care.

next on my crappy list is that my student loan has been put in, which is fine if i was meant to have it, but the papaer work isnt done right and it shouldnt be there yet and its just more hassle to work out why/whats going on. grrrrr!!! they dont give it to you when you want it, but do when you dont?!

i dont know, feeling quite crappy, and my period hasnt been here for about 2 months, and im deffinatly not pregnant, and dont know why its still playing up?! im eating like a pig, it should be regular =-(

i have a lesson at 9 tomorrow, and cant play for more then 10 min without pain on my treble, so that will be interesting. need to get money out for it on the way, and wake up with enough time for breakfast (grrr), thinking of going in earlier to practice.

feeling so fat, its doing my head it.

also got asked out by a dodgey indian guy today (he looked about 50 odd), he stopped me and told me id made his day wehn i smiled, and 'im not a bad person, but do i stand a chance of taking you out for dinner?' my reply was noooooo i have a boyfriend (any excuse will do?!), and then he kept going and kissed my cheek before i got away...flattering as it was, i wish it had have been someone my own age!

anyway, should go to bed i guess!, night! xxxx