ok, so while i have been in hospital sorting out my life, lewis has been off dating half my bloody friends at college.
i know i know i cant be bitter about him dating. which i am not, its just im slightly resentful of the fact its half the people in the early music department.
i have just had to have a conversation with someone i got on with really well, about how she went on a date with him, and how she doesnt know weather to go out with him etc etc, and in truth, as much as i like her as a friend, do i really want to hear it all?!
how am i meant to give her advice about weather she should be with my not so distant ex?!!!
i dont want to know about their date, i dont want to know about what they may get up to, and i dont really want to be aweare that he is off screwing around already... even though i knew that within a week of our break up.
gah, i dont know, maybe im a little jealouse that really i want to be the one enjoying myself, and the one with a relationship being the be all and end all of my life. and maybe, im a little hurt that lewis didnt have the sense to maybe steer clear of all my good friends when it came to him finding another girl.
i guess im feeling a little hurt.
he blanked me at college the other day, and has deleated me from his facebook, i shouldnt care, but i was with him for a year and a half, and i guess i wasnt expecting it to feel like we didnt know each other when we broke up.
just feel =-(
If its a good friend who has been on a date with him, just say its not something you feel comfortable talking about, depending on how good, say about the feeling weird with them dating your ex.
ReplyDeleteI would, I think most people would