hello lovely people,
wellll, how am i feeling?
that is an interesting question, and even i am not sure!
all in all i think im happy to be leaving, i mean, i much prefer life outside, but there are a feww little things im iffy about...
the first, and biggest, is that i feel like a rather large hippo, and am not coping very well with it.
ed is screaming his head off trying to make me stop eating, and iv been tempted by him a lot the last 3 days.
i have eaten what feels like a mountain full of food, but i know it cant be as much as all that, but i am feeling so guilty.
i popped into urban coffee today, and it was nice to be in there, but feels weird being around it.
everything feels strange.
im a bit worried about what i will do when im out. i have no really strong plans, other then that i think i am taking a gap year.
i am all fine when im around people, but its when im alone i find it hard.
thats nothing new, i guess im just used to being around people 24/7 now, and its odd being back alone again.
i wanted my mum to come up on wednesday, but she cant because she doesnt want to mess around her pupils. its probably just as well, as i may be in a bad mood, but i guess i kind of wanted someone round to give me a hug =-(
she keeps going on about me going back home, but i can not be bothered with it, dont really want to i dont think.
i dont know, im all mixed, endings are never easy, even if it does mean i can do my own thing.
=-s
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