pro's and cons'

the pro's of going home...

can do what i like
can go out
can see friends
can eat what i like
dont have to eat too much
can loose weight
can be myself
can celebrate my birthday
can go to music college
can weigh myself
can excercise
can purge.

the pro's of staying here...

am eating normally(?)
have to keep food down (?)
wont be alone(?)
people to talk to (?)

the cons of going home:

pretty much giving up on recovery for a while

the cons of staying here...

cant loose weight,
feel like a fraud,
feel like a fat cow
feel stupid.



gaaaaaaaaah =-(