tough day

hello,
everything has been pretty hard anyway, but today was even crappier.
iv had enough of food now, like really had enough of it, and cant contemplate eating this for any length of time.
im feeling gigantic, im not sleeping well, and i can not wait to be out of here.

lunch was shit, i couldnt manage it (potatoe and veg curry), so had to have 2 suppliments (icky bananna flavour).
had ward round, and was told that they are still assessing me, but the rough plan is to finish the 2 week assesment and then have another 4 weeks on top... im scared its not long ewnough. i spoke to them and asked if it was possible to stay longer, they said nothing is set in stone, but that they dont want people to become dependant etc, so im a little worried.

we also had a meeting today, and me and becs got told off for being too close. it was a pile of bullshit, and all the other girls said so (they said we were forming clicks, and werent welcoming others), but it really got to me. it just feels a bit of a joke. they say to make friends, but as soon as you do its seen as co dependancy.

im exhausted, i feel like shit and i dont want to do this incase i get chucked out to soon.

this is the hardest thing i have ever done.