boo

well, i realise why ben and jerry's chocolate fudge brownie frozen yoghurt is so addictaive... your always looking for that 'last bit' of brownie!

im absolutly dreading tomorrow =-(

3 appointments in one day, 9.00 is GP, 1.30 is the diaticion, and then at 4.30 its Dr r the psych... im cacking it. particularly as my appoointment for Dr r was brought forwards at my gp's request =-(
im scared he is going to wonder why they brought it forwards, and its not like they can do anything anyway.
i had an appointment for the CMHT saying i have an appointment for the 25th of january... i love the way that thats an emergancy referal,

been finding food a bit hard, eating, but the calculations are all going on in my head, and often i restrict in the day but get so hungry at night that i eat a normal amount anyway.

my weight is 49.6kg now, thats so much more then i was, and its doing my head in =-( i know i shouldnt care, but i do. i look down at myself and it makes me want to cry =-( hope it gets easier soon