well,
that was THE most pointless bunch of appointments ever.
my gp one, was a quick 'are you thinking of harming yourself' one,
the diaticions one was where we decided i didnt need the input any more,
and dr robertson did bugger all in giving me any help, it was a 'your on the waiting list', and 'try and change your thoughts' and il see you in a month or so...
so, i saw the warning signs, asked for help, and may as well not have bothered.
they cant tell me how long il be waiting for, and they cant offer me any support in between, leaving me with nothing.
it sounds stupid, but all i need is someone to talk too, and they cant even give me that. im trying so hard not to go backwards, but as time goes on its getting harder and harder, and with no support to help each day its getting that little bit more tempting =-(
it feels impossible to keep this up.
my bmi is now 21, which is apparently right where i should be, how does it feel so wrong? the diaticion kept saying well done, but it doesnt feel very positive to me right now, i hate being this heavy. every time i look down at myself its like starting at a tub of lard =-(
i just want to cry all the time because i cant do what i normally do too stop myself.
erms, i woould say, as much as its like banging your head against brick wall, go talk to your gp, they might have something attached to the surgery or even just a nurse or your gp you cn see regularly to talk too, i know my uni one because a combined gp/psych/therapist...
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