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well, hello my lovelies,
i thought i would check in and say hi!

christmas was surprisingly calm!
we all spent the night at different places, which made a huge difference (me, my sis and grandparents were the only ones to stay at my cousins house), i think it gave everyone some cooling space. so, this was the first ever xmas without full blown arguments!!!!!
sure, there were some frought moments, but by comparison it was lovely!

it was also, the first xmas without music (which is probably another reason for a lack of arguments), so apart from a bit of messing about, there were no children being forced into quartets, no adults shouting about someone playing out of time, and no critical comments about someones playing!

didnt really get many presents, tho my little sis and cousins got me some gab little things (my cousin sam got me some crafty film, you mould wire into a shape and dip it into this film, it dries and you can do all sorts with it!), and ofcourse i have my rather funcky bed that im loving!


im finding food a bit hard, xmas its self was ok, tho i found it really hard because all the meals were at odd times (like, just a big meal at half 3, and everyone picking at things). it didnt really help that i got hungry, ate, and then had to have dinner but got hungry after when other people werent etc etc.

im just finding it hard because i want to loose weight.
iv spent all evening wanting to 'binge', so have gone through 3 tangerines, a red pepper, a carrot and 2 sticks of celery and a few flaked almonds... it feels like a very anorexic thing, but i didnt really need more food and i knew if i ate more kcals i would have thrown up, so it seemed more sensible.

i think i maybe didnt have enough earlier, but im not sure.

went shopping, and got a new coat, a top and the vicer of dibly set =-)

need to stop obsessing over calories and weight for a bit! xxxxx