ok, the 10th it is, i now have a comfermation letter and a 2 week assesment - followed by 'this may result in day care or a package of care from outpatients and/or local services'.
i assume as i have already been in outpatient then the latter is unlickly and if it works for me il be doing daycare for a while.
i start at 10.30 on monday the 10th (im let of breakfast the first day!) till 4, and then for the rest of the 2 weeks its 8-4... im going to have to get used to waking up early!
im a mixture of emotions - scared but excited, nerves but logical about it, wanting to run but exhausted from running, and not wanting to get better but desperate too...so many contradictions at the moment!
i was meant to do a presentation at college today and didnt go in, i faked a sicky (bad charlotte) but just want to stay tucked up hiding under my covers asleep. it feels nicer to be here rather then having to be around college knowing that im not going to be in for the rest of this year (apart from late night practice). it is easier to ignore the change if im not at the place where its going to really change things.
on the up(?) side, i am finally 6 stone 13lb, taken me bloody ages, and im shit scared it will go back tomorrow, but im really really happy with that (?!!!!) - and this is why ed needs to die!
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