quick update

hello,
just a quick post as i should go too sleep!

today 2 people have left for good =-( daycare just wont be as fun without them!
its crazy how close i feel to them, and its only my 3rd week here.

had ward review, and they said after next week they will start reducing my days... im a tad scared, as i really dont think its long enough, but they seem to think its fine. they said they think i need some individual therapy, so fingers crossed it may come up soon, as i have a feeling il need that before i give up my food habbits for good!

feeling crappy tonight as iv thrown up 4 times... i think im just scared/nerves/sad about everything, did try to distract myself by going to college, and i spent 3 hours there, but i still wanted to do it, and then once iv done it once, its hard to stop. not sure quite how im feeling, i dont feel like im in the room, almost like im dizy without being dizzy, sometimes im surprised at how stupid i really am!

guess i should go to sleep, too scared to drink anything, feeling thirsty but knowing me, id end up throwing it up again, so its not worth it.... how i feel so attatched to this eating disorder, i have no idea!