well, i stepped on my scales this morning to see my 'goal weight' popping up at me, i am officially 7 stone... which is great, however ed isnt convinced its enough... which i guess is why he is ed after all.
so to him, 6 stone 10 sounds lovely... which after all is only 4lb and 'wont make a difference', but i know that even if i did that it would go lower, i know that he already likes the sound of 6 stone 7, but likes to aim for things in smaller amounts and add it up after.
in a way i wanted to be convinced that i really would stop after loosing this weight, i mean around xmas i was 8stone 5, and now im 7 stone, almost a stone of that lost since the end of feb, that really should be enough to let myself stop and eat normally again, but i just cant. i dont know why i cant, but i just have to keep doing this.
the part of me that doesnt want ed's voice anymore hopes day care comes up sooner rather then later, but that is quite a small part compared to the bit that feels she should proove she has an ed before she starts there... which isnt logical at all!
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