well, today has been ok, tho im finding it really hard not to eat and throw up tonight, because i am increadibly hungry, but eaten waaaay over what i wanted to today, that will teach me to eat breakfast...makes me hungry for the rest of the day!
im just feeling a little panicky about being so hungry, not used to it.
tomorrow, i need to cut down.

debating weather to fake a sicky and not bother with college tomorrow, i mean im not going to be there for most of this term, and my god are the lectures boring/useless... improvising and devising is pointless as im not going to be there for the group assesment, musicianship i can already do better then the teacher, and history will just be listening to other people doing presentations...zzzzz!

god im getting lazy, really should be doing more, but im feeling very unfussed about it all, i have about 2 weeks of freedom and then into day care anyway, so why fuss over college?

maybe im just scared and prefer my bed and sleep, feels much much safer then being in the outside world, if im asleep i dont have to think, which means im not worried...

feeling very very fat...ie most probably a bit pants.